As I've aged, I've become kinder to, and less
critical of, myself. I've become my own friend.
I have seen too many dear friends leave this
world, too soon; before they understood
the great freedom that comes with aging.
Whose business is it if I choose to read, or
play on the computer until 4 AM? I will dance with myself to those wonderful tunes of the 60s & 70s,
and if I, at the same time, wish to weep
over a lost love, I will.
I will walk the beach, in a swim suit that is
stretched over a bulging body, and will
dive into the waves, with abandon, if I choose to, despite the pitying glances from the jet
set. They, too, will get old.
I know I am sometimes forgetful. But there
again, some of life is just as well
forgotten. And, eventually, we remember the important things.
Sure, over the years, my heart has been
broken. How can your heart not break,
when you lose a loved one, or when a child suffers, or even when somebody's beloved pet gets hit by
a car? But broken hearts are what give
us strength, and understanding, and compassion. A heart never broken, is pristine, and sterile, and will
never know the joy of being imperfect.
I am so
blessed to have lived enough to have my hair turning gray, and to have my youthful laughs
be forever etched into grooves on my face. So many have never laughed, and too
many have died before their hair could turn silver.
As you get older, it is easier to be positive.
You care less about what other people
think. I don't question myself anymore.
I've even earned the right to be
wrong.
So, to answer your question, I like being
older. It has set me free. I like the
person I have become. I am not going to live forever, but while I am still here, I will not waste time
lamenting what could have been, or
worrying about what will be. And I shall eat dessert every single day (if I feel like it). excerpt from a msg adapted and reprinted.
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